It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood

CD4 here - not that it matters this time around. E and I have now accepted the fact that we will not be trying again until June. It's hard, and Friday was a particularly bad day. We, of course, tried to focus on the positive... and I think we do a good job, but it doesn't change matters: being on hold SUCKS!

After emoting for a day or two- and after a Saturday evening full of mojitos and wine, E and I managed to enjoy the most beautiful weekend (yet) of 2007. We bought E a new bike - my new one was purchased on the first nice day of 2007, about three weeks ago. So, we biked down to one of the lakes and picnicked while watching the scuba diving class learn to use their equipment. We biked out for dinner. We rode to the grocery store. We biked just to bike some more. Of course, we also had to take the dog for a walk or two every day, so we had quite a bit of outdoors time- just what we needed!

We will be taking the opportunity to use this month to re-focus. We are losing perspective amid all of the IF junk.

1. We need to re-focus on ourselves: our health and personal development are neglected. We need to read books, ride bikes, and spend time gardening, doing pottery, and cooking.
2. We need to spend time on our relationship: we love each other, and that never waivers, but we need to spend time together and stay in touch in ways other than fertility & baby focus.
3. We need to spend time getting the house ready: we may or may not be moving soon... either way, we need to tile the kitchen!
4. We need to spend time at work: I've been consulting for months now, and I'll be accepting a full-time position within the next couple of weeks, if all goes as planned. In addition, E's busy time at work is right now. It will be nice to encounter the upcoming month's responsibilities fully, rather than in a distracted state of mind where we are running off to ultrasounds and blood draws.

Of course, I might be really upset by the whole thing tomorrow, again. I guess we'll see.